i have the best friends in the world. period. while i've realized this for awhile, i don't know that i've said it enough. a friend once told me that all of his friends were "beautiful, talented, and intelligent" and that if he didn't think so, then why would they be his friends in the first place. that comment really makes sense to me, even more than i had originally anticipated. since i left high school, i've found myself losing contact with a lot of people i used to consider "good friends." i've always just attributed it to incidence and not intent, and i truly believed that for a long time. it helped me rationalize it i suppose, probably just because i didn't want to admit i was the kind of person who could lose touch with close friends so quickly and for seemingly no reason (not that i hold grudges or anything, cause i don't). however, i've come to realize that, while i was not going out of my way to push these people to the background, i certainly wasn't doing much to keep them up front with me.

how did i notice this? simple. i haven't lost touch with everyone i used to be close with, and the ones with whom i've maintained old friendships are the ones who truly matter. now i know that's a horrible thing to say, and i don't mean it in the sense that if i'm not in close contact with a person, they don't matter. i'm thinking more along lines of personal evolution, as pretentious as that sounds. i think i've changed a lot since i got to college, a lot. and i think the ones who have stayed with me the whole time are the ones who have been changing with me, or at least the ones who continue to accept me as their friend despite the changes. that's friendship to me. i'm rambling, losing focus . . .

back to my friends being dope . . . so the ones i've kept with me and especially the ones i've gotten close to since college are all indeed "beautiful, talented, and intelligent" people. i learn something new from them everyday, no exaggeration. whether its about someone else, the world in general, or myself, i'm always amazed. that is not something that is easy to find or easy to replace. more importanly, that is definitely not something that is easy to forget . . .

wow. blogging. i had almost forgotten what it was like, almost. in the back of my mind all this time i've had this nagging feeling that there's something i should be doing, something i'm forgetting. now, on the prompt of scottie, i remembered what it was . . . the blog. i returned to my site and found a few comments by people asking where i was, why i'm not blogging, telling me i should get on it. well, i'll tell you where i was, i was lost, and now i'm found. . .amazing grace i suppose (to be honest i have no idea, i'm not a man of religion). ok, so with the melodrama taken care of, on to more important matters. i figure this past weekend is about as good of an event to blog about as it gets, so it'll do. 2xs, funktion, and a few other close friends all went down to UIUC to perform/party at 2XS UIUC's urbanite party at canopy club. while their campus still carries the faint odor of manure, we all had a great time. some of us too great a time . . .performing was crazy, even tho it wasn't nearly as crowded as last year, the performances were great and the party was ridiculous. it's weird though, the music was kinda wack, there really weren't a lot of people there, but it didn't matter. we were all together, an extended family of 30+ just enjoying each other's company. whether we were driving long distances, dancing or just chillin at someone's place after, the whole weekend was amazing. this goes right up there with ECASU from spring break freshman year in terms of memorable college experiences. one way or another, 99 pictures were taken with my camera that night . . .now if i can only figure out where to post em . . .